Ananda experienced what is like to have an infected finger this past week. The physical “cause” was a piece of yellow squash that got into his index finger while cooking. The underlying “reason” was a buildup of emotionality that needed to come out. The past couple of weeks brought the experience as if everything in “his” world was falling on him. There is a time in Life where we learn how to swim in a nice environment. There is another time, when we need to put that skill into practice while in the “real” Ocean and not a swimming pool anymore.
It took one week for the finger to show symptoms of infection: It swallowed up, hurting with a dull heartbeat, changing color, etc.
Mathias helped Ananda through this “experience.”
Raysha (Ananda’s sister and channel of Mathias) observed how Mathias used some sort of needle of energy, to pull something out of Ananda’s finger. Ananda did not see or felt anything. Mathias then told Ananda to put the finger into a solution of water and baking soda for a few minutes. Ananda felt a relief immediately!
Mathias said: “Your body wants to get rid of the element, but it cannot. That obstruction caused the infection. But behind that infection, there is trapped emotionality inside you due to persistent thoughts.”
Ananda was thankful and appreciative of Mathias and Raysha.
Ananda felt very lucky for not having to see a regular doctor. However, he had to go through the “natural process” of dis-infection.
The finger was in pain for a couple of days. Woke him up at night. Mathias mentioned to apply ice to help in the healing process.
The finger turned into different colors: black with white indentations and red in the periphery. It was an “ugly sight.” Doubts came into Ananda’s mind. Perhaps he needed a regular doctor?
Mathias asked: “Are you finding difficulty to go through the natural process? Once that emotionality goes away from you, so will be the inflammation. You have 2 paths: You could go through the experience of natural healing and take away a valuable lesson OR you may want to get help from Science to make the recovery quicker, but you may not be aware of a lesson. Both paths are fine.”
Ananda went with the natural process.
Mathias said: ”Many times in the process of Life, things get ugly before they move into balance. Those who are not aware of this process do not know the end result and they become anxious and suffer by trying to change things when it is not their time. Only those who are ready to see a lesson, will take that experience as an opportunity for growth.”
So, what was the lesson that Ananda learned through this process?
Ananda learned about the “true” meaning of appreciation.
Many times, Ananda heard this word and even used it in many of his “spiritual” articles. It is a pretty word. Something everyone likes to hear. However, it was truly an ideal, a “concept.”
A “little” finger infection was able to move Ananda’s world into discomfort. Ananda learned to appreciate his health. Something that otherwise, he usually takes for granted. That appreciation is a source of happiness: His world could be upside down, but he is healthy. He can enjoy Life in many ways thanks to health. It is ironic how we need to “lose” something to appreciate it. That was another well-known, pretty phrase, that finally has meaning for him.
Life continually teaches us and will give us the tools for growth in consciousness. We are not willing to learn. We want to “change the world” to fit our ideas.
Unless we are ready to see, we will not see… but yet we are unwilling to trust Life to lead us. We want to see the world as built through the conditionings of our mind. That is why, we cannot AWAKEN. Our eyes are closed in our dreamy world of made up “realities.”
If a seeker has not confronted his mind, all he has left are beliefs and dogma.
If we are all individuals, how is it possible to be One with all at the same time?
That question could stir up our minds. We could try to come up with theories, beliefs, thoughts, opinions, etc.
If someone’s consciousness is stuck in individuality then Oneness could only be a belief for that person.
Throughout all the writings since Ahnanda appeared, one of the focal points was to share that our perception of Life being either “0” or “1” “yes” or “no” “good” or “bad” is just a perception.
Many are so engaged in “defining” who “we are.”
The other day, I heard that “we are souls.” That is the “0.”
Another says:” We are the brain.” That is the “1.”
Please, observe how senseless is to define “ourselves,” when BEING involves many realms, many layers. In the physical layer, we have perceptions of the senses and a mind willing to arrange everything according to our deepest needs. Those perceptions are far from “reality.”
In the non-physical layer, there are many beings which we are connected to, whether we realize it or not. In that world, there are different “senses” to perceive.
“We are” nothing definable, specific, but according to our perception, that will be our “reality.”
The above is very important, for whatever your experience is at this time, it will change.
Caught up in ideas, we could discuss about what is the “truth,” what is “reality.”
When at the end of the day, all of that is completely, utterly meaningless.
This existence is meant to be experienced and if we could learn to enjoy it, then we “made it,” We “got there,” we became “illuminated,” we will be in “paradise,” etc.
The perception is there. It will change. It is guaranteed. Do you want to spend your time denying it, rejecting it, fighting against it?
There are some who actually want that. Nothing wrong with that, for it is part of their process.
If we invest our self-worth in a particular perception, we will be sorely disappointed when Life shows us, a different perspective.
“What is the truth, then?”
“No! That cannot be the truth. The truth cannot change.”
OK. observe that we have different perspectives. Correct?
“Yes, but only one of us is right and the other is wrong…”
That is your belief. Your concept of “truth.” How does that fit into a Life of continuous change?
When we perceive that we could be lost in concepts, perceptions, truths and ideas, automatically there is understanding beyond the mind.
It is by stepping outside the mind through developing/expressing our feelings, how those things of the mind, will get dismissed.
A new perspective is found!
Enjoyment of Life is not of the mind. The mind is lost in the past and the future unable to enjoy what is now.
At the end, it does not matter if the truth changes or not. Enjoyment is not in knowing that answer. What matters is your experience of enjoyment of Life.
Please see that joy is an attitude that comes when we are at peace with every moment that Life may bring, because there is acceptance and trust. We are taken care of, even if it looks otherwise. Some people call that caregiver as “God.” For me, there is no separation whatsoever, for we are ONE with Life.
It is through that realization how we automatically start discarding all mental activities, beliefs, concepts, ideals to allow for that space of feelings to arrive without any mental disturbances of the past or the future. Enjoyment is a feeling.
Life is like a circus.
Clowns will appear, fight, cry, laugh on the stage.
Shall we judge the clowns as “good” and “bad”?
The magician is performing a trick, a rabbit appears out of his hat.
Shall we proselytize that the “truth” is that it is only an illusion?
An acrobat does amazing feats with his body.
Shall we think that his feat only shows his training? Shall we judge that he spends too much time with his body and not his soul?
The circus is there. We will give a meaning to that circus. Nevertheless, whatever your meaning is…enjoy, appreciate the circus. That is all.
Enjoyment is when the mind is not.
Peace is when the mind is not.
Therefore, start with your mind.
“How do I recognize the mind?”
If you are not enjoying Life as it is, there is a mind not allowing for that to happen.
Do you want to wait until things change?
Yes? There is a lesson behind waiting, but when you are enjoying and not waiting, there is no lesson needed.
Mathias, the wise tree; had some healing powers. By using the wisdom of Nature, Mathias could help heal human beings from different diseases.
One day, Raysha; one of Mathias’ friend; brought a doctor close to Mathias.
The medical doctor was very sick. Raysha thought that Mathias could help him heal.
Mathias asked for the doctor to touch the Earth and to extend his right hand, up towards the sky.
Mathias “scanned” the doctor and without a doubt told him what he had to do.
Mathias said: “Doctor, place your back on Mathias’ trunk.”
The doctor placed his back in the trunk of the tree. The doctor felt some sort of energy coming to him. It was an overwhelming healing energy which left the doctor immersed into it.
The doctor rested for a few minutes and he felt well. He felt that his health was coming back to him!
The doctor left Mathias’ park with gratitude.
Raysha couldn’t wait to speak about this “miracle” to his friend, Ananda.
Raysha said: “ Mathias healed the doctor. That doctor has been sick for sometime and no one was able to cure him. Now, he is well.”
Ananda responded:” Really? I have a friend as well who is sick. She is a spiritual woman, and so far no one has been able to do anything for her…. I will bring her to Mathias.”
Raysha: “Who is that friend?”
Ananda: “Her name is Paula.”
The following day, Ananda brought her friend to Mathias. Ananda was hoping for her to be cured right there.
Ananda spoke to Mathias: “Mathias, here is Paula. She is a spiritual person and right now she is very sick. Can your help her?”
Mathias, welcomed Paula and asked her to touch the ground, the Earth with one hand and to raise the other hand with her palm towards the sky.
Mathias then spoke: “ Paula, when Winter time approaches, you could send healing thoughts to Nature and use the feelings of your heart to heal Nature with your vibrations.”
Paula was confused. She asked: “ When am I going to get well?”
Mathias answered: “Paula, you will. Now, Mathias has to go.” Then, Mathias stopped speaking.
Ananda was wondering what was going on? Mathias did not heal Paula. Ananda thought all sorts of things and felt ashamed in front of Paula…. 😦
A few days later, Ananda went back to the park to speak with Mathias. Ananda had a demanding vibe in him.
Ananda: ” Mathias, why you didn’t help my friend Paula? She was sick. Raysha told me that you cured the old doctor the other day, but when it is about my friends, you don’t do a thing… I thought we were friends…”
Mathias allowed Ananda time to expel his frustration and calmly said:
Mathias:” Friend, help can only be given when a person is ready and desires to be helped. The doctor got his disease by helping others to get well. Paula got hers by her own doing. The doctor learned through this disease to feel greater empathy for humanity. His lesson came to an end.
Paula is not ready yet.”
Ananda: “What do you mean that she is not ready yet? She wants to be cured!”
Mathias: “ Friend, through that disease Paula needs to learn about herself. If she is cured right now; she will get sick again, because she is causing that disease through her own doing. She needs to realize what is that. Also, she is not totally ready. Paula says that she wants to be cured but she is not willing to let go of her old habits. “
Ananda: ” So, why instead of saying that, you ask her to send good vibrations to Nature; isn’t that a joke ?”
Mathias: ” Friend, when you help others, when you help the Earth; you are helping yourself. Don’t you know that? Once her mind and heart are tuned into a different direction; then healing will happen.”
Ananda: ” But why don’t you tell her that?”
Mathias: ” Because it is not the time for her to know that. She needs to experience. Life will bring certain experiences for her and then she will understand what Mathias told her. To help is not always to take the burden out of someone, but to allow that person to realize though her own experiences the significance of carrying a burden so she can decide for herself the right time to get rid of it.”
Ananda: “In Spiritually we call that ”settling karmic accounts.” Paula hasn’t settled her yet; right?”
Mathias: ” If you wish to call her own learning experience as “karma,” then be it. That lesson will be invaluable in her spiritual life. Mathias has utter respect for her own process. Friend, Do you understand now?”
Ananda:” yes… but how do I know if my help is really helping another accurately?”
Mathias: “When you stop thinking about it to let empathy arise.”
Being is living. What we truly are has been there for eternity. Some may know “that,” with a label: A soul, a spirit, purusha; etc.
The experience of that which we are is all that matters, for that is all that we could ever know. The rest are perceptions.
Feelings are the expression of that being.
When activities are performed in that awareness of that “inner being,” then our activities are “in-tune” with the “outer” spirit of life.
Some call that “Drama,” others call it “Tao,” others call it “Life.”
Therefore, there is a universal consciousness, which brings unity to everything there is, everything that happens. Nothing exists in isolation.
When the perception of that unity is lost, then the “mirage,” the “illusion” of separation exists. When we separate, we build individuality. When that individuality overtakes our personality; it becomes known as ego.
Suffering then is a consequence of that separation from the totality of life.
Ego manifests its power through thoughts and emotions.
Thoughts usually become our perception of being separated which will manifest into actions and further thoughts. This repetitive cycle is what is known as “sanskara” or predisposition. An ego performing actions, will be actions with ego.
When a thought colors the original feelings of the “inner being,” they become emotions. Those emotions express themselves through the body: a disease, a sensation, a pain in the heart, upset stomach; etc. Those disturbances we name as : fear, love, hate, etc. When we express emotions, the body will experience the consequence of it.
Emotions are dualistic. A high elation is followed by a low depression. Their intensity is the same but in opposite directions.
The seed then is a thought. That thought is one of separation between “you and me.” That is the importance of recognizing thoughts.
Therefore, the “cure” for this “disease” of separation, is to go back to the original nature of Oneness. That means that our consciousness needs to be in the awareness of what is “true.”
This has been called “witnessing,” detached observer, trustee, presence, careful awareness, etc. Different names for the same thing.
When that “witnessing” comes with feelings originating in the self; it has been known as “yoga.”
Therefore, the cure of separation and suffering is to remember that oneness. That means to experience it constantly.
This sense of oneness, has been named as experiencing God for some, or to be in bliss for others; note that the experience of being with someone like God or by itself, are both accurate as long as there is the sense of unity, communion. That makes the experience of spirituality complete. The descriptive words are not as important as the experience itself. The proof of that spiritual experience is in our activities. We do what we are.
Let us say that John is a challenging employee. John does not care about his supervisor’s role. He will challenge his supervisor continuously. Roy supervises John and Anne supervises Roy. That is the “chain of command.”
Before Roy was hired, Anne supervised John. Anne believes that John is necessary in the organization, even though John continually gets in trouble with other employees due to his “know it all” attitude.
John is very knowledgeable in what he does and despises “slow people.” John has a big ego.
John manipulated his work schedule as he wished. He wanted Roy, his supervisor; to sign for it. Roy refused on the grounds that John never asked for permission to change his regular schedule.
John was upset. He mentioned that he has been always a tireless employee in the organization, willing to go the “extra mile.”
John complained to Anne about this.
Anne was a caring woman, who believed in John at all costs. John has saved “her skin” in many occasions due to his know-how.
Anne met with Roy about this incident. At the end it was Anne, the one making the final decision.
In the rational world; John didn’t have any valid ground on his posture. However, in the “real world,” we have Anne’s emotions which are coloring her decision. Anne does nto want to cause issues on her “star employee,” but at the same time; she wants for Roy to feel good.
Roy had some “choices.”
1) He could try to enforce his position (ego) over John. By asking Anne to fully comply with his refusal to sign his time sheet. By doing so, Anne’s emotions will appear and defend his “star employee.”
2) Roy could just explain his position and become part of the “movie;” that is accepting whatever Anne decides to do. Many could take this as lack of “ aggressiveness” from Roy; but in the “movie of life,” we know that it all depends on how important this episode is for Roy. That “importance”becomes an expectation. That is a desire to enforce his supervisory position over John.
Many times life will offer us the same episode. As long as there is separation between “me” and “you” at any thought level; we will have a desire. If that desire is fulfilled or not; it will lead into further desires to strengthen the separation. That is how ego strengthens itself.
Roy could be totally “unshakable” if he just becomes a witness; that is a detached observer with “unlimited disinterest” on the outcome. Anne’s decision will not affect him as long as Roy’s ego is not around. Roy still will obtain a paycheck and the law of karma will do the needful. In which way?
If Anne decides to agree with John; then John will simply “bypass” Roy at all times.
John will keep pushing his way until Anne will not be able to take it anymore. Roy just needs to “get out” from being in between.
As long as Roy lets everything unfold, without having his ego included in this; things will flow according to the spiritual laws. This is known as being “empty,” a “trustee.”
However, that “emptiness,” can only be “true,” if it comes from the experience of the self. That is continuous remembrance of our eternal quality. That remembrance is experiential. Without this experience, it will be just “acting.” When we “act” we are not “original,” and the consequence of that is an emotion building up in the self. We can stop emotions from being shown at a particular time; but that emotion will be waiting there to “explode” at a later time. That is known as a “sanskara” emerging; but note that the origin was a repressed emotion.
We cannot stop the flow of energy but just redirect it. Transform it. What we produce, will come back to us.