The “I” is the issue to comprehend, to understand, to experience.
When a religion or a philosophy is based on giving life to that “I,” we will experience many inconsistencies, many contradictions.
The consciousness of an “I” is like a wall in between life.
When that wall becomes strong as a brick, then the force to dissolve it, will be equally strong.
The struggle to keep that “I” alive is observed in different belief systems.
For example, we may “know” that everything is eternal, but then we are afraid of the “end of the world.” We need to observe that intellectual information is of no use when the “I” is only striving to keep itself alive.
Unless our consciousness changes through an experience of life, then our head will be full with information.
That information could be worshipped; it could take a particular form as to give us the impression that we are safe, that the “I” has obtained life insurance for the afterlife.
The issue is not the “afterlife.” It is now.
It will take lots of courage to “re-set” our minds from beliefs and traditions deemed “good” that we have learned.
It will take lots of courage to accept a life of living just to experience that “I.”
Ego is a word which denotes the answer for every question. Why is there suffering? Because of the “I.” Why is there war, famine, beliefs, taboos, separation, etc.?
Because of that “I.”
Knowing that intellectually, does not “do” a thing. It is all theory until we are willing to explore it inside ourselves, observe it without rejection.
At that point, we have gone beyond the child “spiritual state of consciousness” of blaming things on the Devil, God, Maya and everything else, without looking at that “I.”
Fear is used as a mechanism to trap someone into a particular experience. Sometimes, we do that to ourselves.
We could label the energy of fear as “bad” something which is not “good,” something to reject… however, as my friend Mathias said: “ a brave man is not the one who does not feel fear, but the one who knows how to transform that energy into strength.”
When we realize about transformation of energies, how could we deny or oppose something which is happening in us?
How could we feel guilty of that experience? Trapped in the “black or white” mentality we get trapped into the duality of the “sinner and the saint.”
The child mentality wants to be a “saint” and rejects the sinner in him. It is that rejection, that fear of being a sinner, the force which will keep that sinner alive and guilt will be the shadow on that journey.
All of our fears only strengthen that thing which we fear. When there is no rejection, then we are back into being one… The one who transforms himself.